Thursday, July 15, 2010

The 522 days since you left us

Dear Popo,
Today is the 522 days of your passing. How are you doing up in heaven? I imagine you must have had lots of friends by now to keep you company. Heck, as I’m writing this, you might be playing cards with wa kong and Micheal Jackson.

Just kidding. But seriously, how are things up there?

Will you forgive me if i tell you i haven't been taking care of Mom very well? her health is getting bad. The pass fews week i have been in a bad situation. I haven’t been seeing Mom very often. She’s been wanting to talk to me, but I’m always hiding myself in the room to recover myself. I try my best k?

Popo, there’s another thing I’d like to apologize for.

I have not visited Dajiu for weeks after his heart operation. , I’m so sorry but I tried. I just wasn’t as good as you thought. I now have no confidence to do things like i used to do. i just want to be myself and try to figure out what's the next step i suppose to take. I have lose confident on trusting people.

Popo, do you know that we have moved to Jenjarom? Didi and i are doing well. We set up a construction company and we completed fews projects last year. We made some money that we never ever thought it would be so much. I have got an offer in new architect firm which the new boss entrusted me a lots. It makes me sad that you were not here to witness these very proud moment and share the happiness in my life.

I was under so much stress in the weeks leading up to the recent broke up with girlfriend. There were so many problems and I didn’t even sleep well for the pass 6 months. As i know that, this is the most important stage in our relationship and i have been silent for some period to see what is going to happen. In fact, i once thought- once it is crossed, it is either 天长地久或曾经拥有.Obviously, it become曾经拥有to me. Love is fragile, and not meant for test.

But, don’t worry Popo, everything is okay now. I believe that with you looking at me, i can overcome all the problems.

I miss you Popo. 522 days on, I still wish you were here. Guess the only way I’ll see you again is on the day I join you in heaven. I’ll make lots of KOPI O for you then.

Please take good care of yourself and wa kong.

love,

your grandson


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